I stop. For at least two hours. Sometimes more.
No house cleaning, errand running, coffee dates, writing, social networking, working out, yard work, grocery shopping, cooking, bill paying or even Netflix binging. :)
Instead, I stop. I breathe in the silence and ask myself: how am I feeling?
I reflect on the week that I've walked. What are the events that made me uncomfortable, angry or stressed? Why did I feel that way? What made me happy? I give thanks for the good. Understanding that my feelings are meant to give me information about the world around me and my interaction with it a reflect: what do I need to change? Have I overcommitted to something? Have I developed a poor habit that is harmful to my well-being? Do I need to apologize to someone?
I record these things down. I actually use a graph to show my mood swings week to week. This graph helps me to identify stress and triggers in my life. It also reminds me that life is full of 'ups' and 'downs'. When I'm down, I have the chart to show me: things will get better again. :)
I work through the upsets of my soul. Did I have a conflict with someone? Why did that person's actions make me feel that way? What assumptions did I make that are probably false (we are NOT mind readers!)?
I remind myself that my personal value has nothing to do with the work I do, regardless of quality or quantity.
That my value is inherent and unchanging no matter what people say or think of me.
I breathe.
I pray, and I meditate, I let these truths sink into me.
I make a change.
I go downstairs and tell my husband all about it. :)
He sighs and says "I tell you these things all the time! Why don't you just listen to me?"
We both agree that I never listen to him.
And the week begins again. 😝
Be blessed. 💓
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