I love the big calendar on my fridge, scribbling down family events months in advance. We will do this, we will go here. I listen to the weather report every morning, and check Google for the best route to get the kids to school. I keep a close eye on the housing market and run the numbers through my head: always trying to trying to know, to control.
A few weeks ago my husband’s career became uncertain. We may or may not have to move sooner... or later. Perhaps his position at work will change... or it may not.
People who know the situation ask me ‘what will you do? where will you go?’. I’m at the point where all I can do is laugh. I have no idea. It’s a problem that no amount of planning can solve... and we’ve tried.
I don’t know what the future holds for our family, there’s no 10, 5 or even 1 year plan. Instead, I thank God for the warmth of our home and the love of family. For today. Any illusion of control over the future is gone.
And to my surprise, I have discovered uncertainty is a gift. I don’t know what will happen tomorrow but I know that today the sun is shining and the house smells of gingerbread.
And I am content.
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Love you girl!
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